well...exams are bitches.I haven't had any yet,but by this time next week i'll have done 1..will have an essay for monday and another exam on thursday.

There are people who have it much worse than me...levi for a start, so no honey,i'm not going to complain again.I just wanted to make the statement that exams are bitches.

I've read so many books and stories that all the characters are in a huge jumble and i forget who's in what and married to who or killed themself or attempted to or thought about it before having sex with their best friend's neighbour's boyfriend's sister in law....or something.

Yeah so anyway..i'm quite mixed up about it all and just hope that by Friday it will all be ok..or at least partially,cos i need a B.

Last night i really should have been reading...i had told Levi this a thousand times but she had made up her mind that we were going to the cinema and that was final.No matter how much of a bad mood i got into with her,or how much i told her that i really couldn't afford to go..or even the fact that my mum told me not to so i kinda said that i was going to the erm library and (no honest i'm not slipping back into the whole lying thing...honest..she made me do it) i still found myself in the cinema as the lights went down at 7 last night.

Serendipity..it was a good movie,i liked it...cringifyingly annoying the way they kept missing each other at parts..but apart from that it was good..happy ending..nice relaxing movie...i couldn't help thinking all the time though that i really should be reading god damn it...anyway...there was no way that i was gonna do any work when i got home,becuase i'd just be thinking about what a great time i could have been having over at Levi's..and i told myself i'd only go over for a while and i'd do some reading since i had all my stuff and we could finish my box of chocolates and it would be good and i'd do some work.It wasn't that far from my original plan to go to the cinema and then have Levi drop me off at the library where i'd work till it closed...

So anyway...sitting on Levi's bed with my book (see?..reading ...that was the plan remember?!) and then she decides to look the way that she does...and look at me the way that she does..and kiss the way she does...and god the feel of her skin was so amazing last night..i swear i felt like i'd never touched her before in my life...i love her back..and her neck and her shoulders..god those shoulders..

and then she decides that i should be reading and doesn't let me touch her or look at her..doesn't mean that she couldn't try to distract me though apparently and boy did she distract me...i read about 20 pages of my book while i was there...and i had to read every single one of them again today becuase i hadn't really read a single word on any of the pages.

we were right back to being good together last night.No make that fantastic together.

As a result i didn't get my book finished in time for the tutorial today..but you'll all be glad to hear that i did get it finished tonight..have read another 2 short stories aswell...hence the not being able to remember which character is in which book thing.

Today i was over at her's again for a while(i know you're right..we can't keep away from each other..you'd think that would have worn off after almost 2 years...wrong!)...we slept in each others arms for maybe half an hour and it was the best half hour's sleep i've had in so long..i'd forgotten how nice it is just to sleep in her arms.It is the single most comfortable place i have ever been and probably ever will be.It's times like that when i just can't wait to finish uni this year and get ourselves to Canada...to have our own bed..to wake up and fall asleep next to each other..to do all the little things that people who live together take for granted..and we're not fooling ourselves that it will all be plain sailing....we already know exactly what our first argument as a 'living together couple' will be like.But we also know what the making up is like..and that's one of the best things about us...we know each other so well..we fit together so well.

We're right together.

and lately..every time i think about her and every time we're together,i get that tingling sensation that i used to get from just being in her presence before she even knew how i felt about her..before she knew that the only thought that fills my entire being day and night is the thought of her..and no matter how good my intentions to study..or work or read or do anything are the only thing i ever think about is her.

And i just hope she knows that.