I just read boy's latest entry and i'd like to agree with everything he's saying.This is a horrible time of year.

Right now i'm in the middle of researching for a big esssay that's worth 60% of my mark for film.It's horrible.It's due on the 16th and i haven't started writing it yet..ive done a fair amount of research but no writing..and its longer that what i usually have to write...it might even be the longest thing ive had to write yet.And we're sposed to try an be original.I met someone from my class in the library tonight..and we both agreed that all the books we read make exactly the same points so how are we..2nd year undergrads with like NO experience of anything, s'posed to be original?!

Levi went on holiday to Tenerife for a week and took her books with her to study.I spent a lot of that week reading and taking notes and reading again.And still not understanding but writing it down anyway cos surely it'll all be relevant at some point and i might just be able to use it so i might as well write it down cos who knows..maybe when i actually know what that 26 letter word means it'll make more sense?

I'm s'posed to be reading for english as well..i've only read like 2 of the books this term..there's 8 and the exam is in in just over 6 weeks..one of the books is Ulysses...for anyone who's read it..or not read it.. can we say 'massive' children?

Me and Levi are seeing less and less of each other and it's making us both cranky or something.She has and essay to write too and an exam coming up really soon..i know she's worried about them.

We also read in the uni newslettter that next year the holidays at easter and christmas are gonna be made shorter.How any student is gonna be able to get the workload done with shorter holidays i don't know.Cos holidays are not holidays anymore.They're reading weeks and writing weeks.And sitting-inside-while-the-sun-has-decided-to-show-itself-for-the-first-time-in-7-months weeks.

Usually i can keep myself going with the thought of 'just get this essay done and it'll be over' but not this year.Cos i keep thinking ahead..to my english essay that i'll have to start on almost as soon as this is done..to all the books i still have to read and then the secondary reading as well...then the exams..and the wait for the results.

The only thing that's keeping me going is the thought of spending some alone time with levi..even if its only an hour here or there.

We've made an executive decision though.and its a great decision.On Monday we go up North,just until Wednesday.Alone.just to be together and to celebrate a certain special occasion (of which we'll say more at the time).It's something we need to do.For us.To keep us sane.To remind us of what life is really about.

Because with everything that's going on right now if someone asked me what the point of life was i might be tempted to say 'writing essays' in a zombie like voice.

But there is more to life..and so this time i just have to think on a larger scale...just get this next 2 months done and then it'll all be over.

As long as we keep each other going.