I'm sorry.

for the mess that everything seems to be in.

for the way i can never say yes to things.

for the way i worry and think too much.

for the way i cry when things go wrong.

for the way my family affects every decision.

for the way we can't be together all the time.

for the way we can't even be together most of the time.

for the way i'm talking about telling him and making it scary and serious.

for the way i have to go home early.

for the way i can't follow you home and stay with you till you fall asleep.

for the way we have to keep things secret.

for the way i don't want to keep it a secret anymore.

for the way i want to be able to tell everyone but that means telling him first.

for the way i made this all happen.

for the way i took you out of your life and placed you in the middle of this.

for the way i'm selfish and don't want to wait another three years.

for the way i don't know if i can wait.

for the way you think that this is your fault.

for the way you blame yourself for telling him maybe not working out,it's just something i have to do.

but

i am NOT sorry for loving you

or for feeling that this is worth it

that WE

are worth it.